Duh. It was only one day for pete's sake. ;;) Something's wrong with our Yahoo! Messenger and I can't connect, so I really miss my friends online. I'm okay, though I don't eat right anymore. I guess I should take that as an advantage because finally, I can lose weight. :)
It's been a while since I learned about that stupid news. It's sooo yesterday. ;;) I know, sooner or later I'll be okay. And I'll be able to get over it.
I hope.
The Redeemed One 12:44 PM
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Still haven't recovered from yesterday's news.
Well, I still haven't been able to recover from yesterday's news. *sigh*
I haven't been true to myself lately. I've been lying to my friends, pretending I was strong when I'm not. Pretending I don't care, when I do. Pretending I'm not hurt but I am. Things haven't been going really smooth lately, and I'm in a situation that really, I mean really affect me. Honestly, I'm going through struggles and I don't think I'll ever be able to get through this. I don't feel like moving on. I just want things back the way they were. I just want things back to normal. Gosh, life is so.. well.. unfair. I don't know why I'm so weak.. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so insecure, so unloved and not cared for. What's wrong with me..?
A-Z Survey..
A - Address: Somewhere in QC Ü
B - Band listening to right now: Southborder ["Love of my Life.. Destined Forever.."]
C - Career in future: Lawyer or Writer..
D - Dad's name: Carlos Ramos Esguerra
E - Easiest person to talk to: Andy [My bestfriend!] Ü
F - Favorite song at the moment: 'Tattooed on my Mind' by D*Sound ["And I can't get you out of my dreams.. Now I know that you're the dangerous kind.. And your face is tattooed on my mind.. And I can't get you out of my dreams.."]
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy Worms.. Ü
H - Hometown: QC..Ü
I - Instruments: Guitar and Drums!! Ü
K - Kids: None pa.. Siguro after 10 years.. Ü
L - Longest car ride ever(longest trip by car): Baguio trip.. Ü
M - Mom's name: Connie Alonzo
N - Number of siblings: 2.. One older bro and one older sis Ü
P - Phobia[s]: Umm.. Heights.. Ü
Q - Favourite Quote(s): God breaks hearts to remake them.. Ü
R - Reason to smile: Madami.. Ü
S - Song you sang last: Umm.. 'A Little Bit' by M.Y.M.P.
T - Time you wake up: 10am usually..
U - Unknown fact about me: I have lots of insecurity issues.. I don't know if that's an unknown fact about me anymore..
V - Vegetable you hate: Umm.. Saluyot.. Ü hehe
W - Worst habit: Biting my nails. Haha. :D
X - X-rays you've had: I dunno.. Maybe when I was little.. I don't remember na e..
Y - Yummy food: Umm.. I dunno e..
Z - Zodiac sign: Sagittarius.. Ü
The Redeemed One 12:50 PM
Saturday, May 01, 2004
I'm hurt and I don't even know why.
I'm shocked, hurt, confused and irritated all at the same time. I found out things that I wish I didn't even find out at all. I wish I didn't listen, I wish I didn't go out today.
I'll just blog again tomorrow.
The Redeemed One 7:45 PM
Friday, April 30, 2004
Unproductive Day.
Oh well. Another day turned to waste. (:l I didn't do anything productive today. Didn't help anyone, didn't do nothing, as in zip-zero. *arrgh* I was only able to add some few things in the side bar but I don't consider that productive at all. I hate it when I can't do anything right or I can't do all the things I should. Or when I can't sort out what I need sorted out. Or when I mess up all the time.
I don't know why I'm moody today. Maybe there's this person who really, really, really irritates me.
Have to go. I just don't know what to write in here anymore. Being unproductive is bad enough. I might say worse things if I continue writing.
Survey. It's cute.
[1] if there was one person you wanted to spend the rest of your life with.. who would it be? why?
»God. ;;) Right now, He's the only man I love. [Besides my Dad, my big bro, my Grandpa..] ;;)
[2] if the one you love loves someone else, what would you do?
»Um.. Maybe just set him free. There are a lot of other fishes in the sea. :D
[3] what was the biggest mistake you have done? (in terms of loving)
»Um.. Letting go of the person just for the sake of everyone.
[4] if you could turn back time, what would you have done?
»"I should've never let you go.."
[5] if you like sum1 ryt now.. what is it in him/her that made you fall?
»I'm not crushing on anyone right now.
[6] would you consider yourself blessed at this point bcoz of sum1?
»Yeah.. ;;)
[7] how far are you willing to go for your loved one?
»I don't have one right now, so..
[8] what is the greatest sacrifice you have done for love?
»Maybe making a fool out of myself and make believe that he feels the same way when I know he doesn't.
[9] who is the person you would call 'my life' right now?
»God. He's my life. Everything I do is for Him, all for His glory..
[10] do you believe in love at first sight?
»There's attraction, but love.. I don't think so.
[11] if you have a bestfriend in the opposite sex, why of all did you pick him/her?
»Because he's been there for me through thick and thin. ;;)
[12] what if you fell inlove with your bestfriend? would you tell?
»No.. That would be really stupid. You might lose the friendship, you know..
[13] destiny or magic?
»God’s will..
[14] how can you let go of sum1 that wasn't yours from the start?!
»That sucks. That's what I'm going through right now. I can't let go of a person who wasn't mine in the first place.
The Redeemed One 6:53 PM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Freewebs
I'm planning to move to Freewebs where there are more templates. Just kiddin'! :)) I'm contented with Blogger.com and I'll stay here. But if ever there will be changes.. We'll see what'll happen next.
Things have been going really crazy (and frustrating, if you ask me!) inside our house today. I can't really say what it is because it's pretty personal. All I know is that it sucks.
Talk to ya later. I have all these stuff I need to do, and I'm starting our class website. Ciao!
The Redeemed One 7:08 AM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Head over heels in love with Jeremy Sumpter.
Waaahhh!! *screams* I'm so in love with Jeremy Sumpter! You know, the guy who played Peter Pan? And I hate Rachel Hurd-Wood! He kissed my Jeremy in the lips!! ;P Sorry if I sound so obsessed but he's really cute. Any girl on her right mind would actually fall head over heels in love with him! ;;)
Anyways, my mom wanted me to go with her to work and check out her new office. She was actually promoted as a head officer of the choova-choo-choo whatever. :D I don't know what it is, but I'll find out as soon as she gets home. She's a lawyer kasi. And I want to be just like her when I grow old. Although she has flaws, for me she's the perfect epitome of beauty and brains. (Naxx! :) I hope my mom could read this).
Gotta go. I'm having a little problem with my blogspot. My blogs won't appear in the site! *arrgh* After every problem is fixed, another one comes.. *sigh*
The Redeemed One 1:32 PM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Nothing much.
It's been a nice day. I was actually planning to watch Peter Pan when Andy wanted me to check out something in our Pitas Blog. ;;) I'm still online with her, and we're planning to make a Friendster account for our barkada (Me, Andy, Chutty, Yca and Dana). We have our own e-mail address na nga e. It's girl_friends@heartthrob.com. Cute, huh? ;;) I just love being with my peers. It's just that not everyone gets the chance to have such cool, real, supportive, nice, and honest pals. Ü I'm so proud to have all four of them! They've been there for me through thick and thin. How I wish our friendship will last long. Well, I'm pretty sure it will.
Gotta run. ;;)
The Redeemed One 5:26 PM
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You think you know? You have NO idea. The Real Abbie is sweet, compassionate, soft-spoken, struggling, and submissive. I love GOD.. And I know I'll never ever regret that I surrendered my life to His will. Now I understand why I'm here on earth. I have a purpose. And I'm willing to fulfill God's purpose for me. ;p I call myself girl-next-door, because that's what I am. I keep it simple. :) MUSIC has been and will always be my passion, and no matter when happens, I'll use it for the glory of God. I'm also a hopeless romantic who is yet to meet The One. And I know he'll come, in God's own perfect time..
She LOVES
God above anything and anyone else. Her family, 4R, and other churchmates - everything I have become and everything I will be I owe to them. Her life. MUSIC. :) Rhythm & Blues. Soul. Dancing. Performing. One Tree Hill, The OC, and Dawson's Creek. Drawing. Butterflies. Pink, Peach, and Purple. The girl-next-door appeal and title. :)
She HATES
Not being able to express how I really feel. Boredom. Arrogant people. Nasty mockers and backstabbers. False intrigues. Mean and bitchy girls. Spiritual show-off. Being provoked. Being underestimated. Judgmental people. Pests - cockroaches, spiders - name it. People who step on other people's toes just to get to the top.
Music
Contemporary Christian Music, Dreamsounds on Wave 89.1, R&B/Soul [Bethany Joy Lenz, Jojo, 112, Azure, Ruben Studdard, Erykah Badu, Jordan Knight, Justin Timberlake, Alicia Keys, Stevie Wonder, Athena Cage, Craig David, Usher, Boyz II Men, Dice & K9, Southborder], Acoustic [MYMP, Paolo Santos, John Meyer, Lisa Loeb] Pop Rock [Bamboo, The Calling, Goo Goo Dolls, Edwin McCain, Ryan Cabrera, Rivermaya, Sponge Cola, Hale]
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